Sunday, March 27, 2011

racing pigs

Every year, I tell myself that I don't need to go to the fair. And every year, they put the racing pigs on the commercials, & with feigned reluctance, I plan a day at the fair.

I was offered a job in China working with kids. And even though it's not the best career move, I really, really want to go. For me, traveling is like racing pigs, but on such a bigger level. There is literally nothing I love more than getting off a plane in a foreign country & saying, "Alright, let's go." I love the feeling that everything is new & exciting. I love long flights & airplane food & figuring out new transportation systems.

And I wish I had some way to make a solid decision.

I have never been a girl who hears the voice of God in a Charlton Heston, Ten Commandments sort of way. More often than not, God has set roadblocks in my way to give me a "no" answer. If nothing interferes with what I want to do (go to college, go to Africa, change my major), than I take that as a "yes". I just wish I had a better system, one that makes me feel more at peace.


valbuss said...

haha! Maybe I stole your decision making system, because I feel like that all the time. Speaking of decisions, we're at SDSU one more year. hurray! But I think there's an emphasis on ONE. So, this time next year, Ryan and will be praying about moving as well. I'll be praying about this china thing though.

Rebekah said...

Dude, I know!

I'm so jealous of people who get real directions and answers instead of what seems like just delayed feedback.

Can't wait to chat with you about all the fun possibilities though :)